Just beside You

I had a dream to have you;

In my wonderland I walked with you;

You were my prince charming in white horse;

My angel with Phoenix bird;

You were here, I was there,

The gap between us was extended so far;

Now, I have a home just beside you,

I can sit just beside you,

It is magical to have the breath

In lap of you and the sky’s underneath

Oh the mighty sea with serene blue

I am in love with you….

Probably

I could not find you, when the time was right,

 I could not have you, when I was content;

I have lost everything; happiness, urge to live a life and so on…

Somewhere, far behind the mighty Brahmaputra or the serene Purvanchal

They bid goodbye to me,

Never to return.

The flute also now a day stopped ,

Behind the bushes;

Which made me lively on every moonlight nights..

Night jasmine’s smell doesn’t make me crazy now..

Infect, I have forgotten how the clear sky was

On every autumn evening.

Winter mornings how the foggy paddy field unveils

And awakes up, I could hardly remember..

Had you been come before, I had a hidden treasure for you,

Which I built for you only unconsciously.

There was a dream of taking you to the kingdom, where I was the princess,

There was a dream of taking you to the garden, to the hills to the forests and to the heaven…

Where I was always happy once,

Where I could have told you lot of stories, without any character limit;

Where I could have asked you to touch the calm waterfall, the soft tea leaves;

Where we could have spend the whole moonlight night

Among those people, who have nothing but the joy of life..

May be I would have rested on your shoulder on the bank of the river,

Which always comes into my dream,

Had I been meet you in the right time,

I would have been happy by now.

GROUND ZERO

“Had I been able to walk with you, I would have walked”—He told her concentrating on tying the loosen shoe lace. The loaded sea breeze crossing horizontally made her shaken, so as his voice made her soul. The crowded ambient suddenly turned into a Death Valley amidst the pin drop silence between the two. Thousands of words, she used to write for him lost their path somewhere between truth and destiny. He knotted the shoelace tight enough, stood up and said, “I cannot walk the direction you are walking anymore, it is too sunny. I am tired by walking too long since last one hour and I need shadow now. ” She smiled, looked towards the endless sunny road and started walking, as she was already determined. He paused for a while; took a deep breath and started moving calmly towards the other direction of the road, shadowed by the trees. Peacefully he reached the diversion, from where he has started walking with her. He stopped, looked back and sighed. She still continued walking. The hot sun above and the firing ground below were making her nearly fainting and there was still time for both sunset and her destination.

LIFE

He smiled proudly when his fingers were being searched by a tiny life standing four feet below his shoulder, for walking. He smiled more proudly when the tiny life reached one foot below his shoulder and was no longer in the need of his fingers for walking. He was in tears when the tiny life exceeded him both vertically and horizontally in life.

The tiny life started flying in the new horizon it has made for itself. The new identity made him forgotten that it was nothing but a tiny life till yesteryear, which was protected by a secured shoulder and two caring hands.

Suddenly one day, the tiny life packed its luggage, closed the door angrily and moved out of the home refusing to accept that he suppressed all his desires, only to make the desires of the tiny life fulfilled. He did not think of buying new cloths for himself to ensure that the tiny life could wear of his choice on every occasion. He silently put off the earthen lamp, and broke down into tears in the darkness of the night, holding the hand of hers.

THE FORBIDDEN GAP

The very first thing that I want to tell about him is that, his black eyes with long eye laces attracted me a lot. He was fun loving, devoid of any complexity of life and yes of course was a bit crazy; which I came to know after my friend Niki, had become his neighbor. His home was on the way to my college. At the very morning when I went to college, he used to sit on a chair at the balcony of their flat. I saw him first four years ago on a bright sunny morning of July. I don’t know why, but when I saw him first, I badly wanted to see him for second time too. The way he set, the way he was taking his breakfast, everything was very cute. I was very happy when I came to know that our bus route will be the same which goes in front of their house.

Few days went back…..it was a gap of 3 days when I saw him next. That day he was with two balloons knotted on his ears and was scaring a little kid on the balcony. He was looking so cute that I could not help myself from talking to him. Slowly I made a scram to grab his attention, but my so called TOTLA voice was of no use and he did not notice me at all. He was busy at his work. I became dishearten…

For the next few days, as it was the rainy season, continuous raining was there and I was unable to peep through the window of the bus to have a look at him and I cursed God; I wanted to start my love story and now only you can interfere. What were you doing when the cultivators needed rain? May be He listened to me. Next Monday the sky was clear and adding to my joy one of my friends also stated coming from the flat to catch the college bus. I was happy because for her the bus would wait in front of the flat for five minutes and I could have a look at him for five minutes. (Sometimes even a minute means a lotJ). From that day I started awaking up much before my mom called me and started getting ready as fast as I could, so that I could catch the college bus. Meanwhile my classes also started in full swing. But he occupied my mind so badly that on graphics sheets I stated drawing his face, in chemistry labs I did those titrations with Potassium Permanganate very carefully to make the baby pink colour which was the colour of the cloths he was wearing when I saw him first.

I used to sit with Niki at class and whenever I felt that all the boring theories were reflected from the circumference of my dull brain, without even 1% penetration towards the centre, I pleaded her to tell about him. At the cost of her favorite chloromints she used to tell me lot of things about him. With all the stories about him by Niki, I could somehow find it that he will like me and I was very happy thinking about it. Niki also forced me to talk with him and finally I made up my mind to put the first step…..

That day I wore a pink suit as she told me that red is his favourite colour. But as I did not have any red cloths so I substituted with pink. That day I started from my home as soon as possible to catch the window seat of that side facing towards their home. I was excited and my heart was biting faster as the bus was approaching towards their house.

Finally it came…The bus stopped to pick her up.

But ….

His chair was empty and I heard he was screaming very painfully inside the room. It horrified me. I pulled my neck as long as I could and wanted to have a guess what was going on. I thought maybe he got fever and so the heartless doctor injected him. I did not even imagine what was waiting for my eyes. Meanwhile Niki came and the driver started the bus. Just before the bus left I saw a portion of his snow white body which was covered with red blood and a bald man was cruelly pulling him with a rope and a fat lady was pushing him with a big stick. I became a statue and I felt that my heart stopped biting….

I recovered my sense when Niki kept her hand on my shoulder and uttered “I am sorry dear”. I did not even have any word to ask her anything. She just held my hand tightly and her eyes were also filled up with tears.

(Later she told me that while playing with the little kid as always that morning he bites her and she got hurt. So the kid’s parents bit him to death. Their very dear Tommy, the snow white spitz dog turned into devil within a minute….

And thus my story ended. It remained as a forbidden gap for ever between him and me….)